Saturday, January 5, 2008
I'm Mrs "Extra, Extra! This just in!"
Read & View photos : http://omg.yahoo.com/britney-in-involuntary-psychiatric-hold/news/5346I don't know why she is affecting me so much. Big time! I feel really really terribly sorry for her. My heart actually aches right now. She looks more than miserable.. I guess I kinda understand how she feels. I have seen that look before. The I-can't-believe-I've-lost-my-kids look. I know. Some of you might know what I mean by that. *Sigh* I have this urge to hold her. And then snap her out of all this BS. Somebody please help the poor girl already!! She doesn't seem like she can do it on her own. Wow I can't believe I'm getting upset over this. But I really am! (Again!!)I truly believe that she is losing her mind. She is soon to be gone. She will be just another has been. But I don't want that to happen.. I honestly don't. And I think it is still not too late to fix things. Again, why am I stressing myself over this? And like nobody is going to read this and do anything about it anyway. AND, nobody who could do something about it is ever going to read my blog. Pah.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
I think I need some space. Maybe I don't. But I also think I need to get to the root of the problem and in my mind, I know what the problem is. At least I think so. Yeah, there has been a lot of thinking going on..A part of me is telling me to fight, but I know better that it is only going to increase tension and frustration. So no to that. Another part of me is telling me to just let it go. Move on.. But I know for certain that problems don't go away that easily. One day it will come back and it will be much worse than it already is. And the other part of me is saying I know myself and I know what I want and in order to get what I want, I need to set things straight. I need to lay everything out in the open so that a certain degree of understanding could be reach. That is exactly what I want. Understanding. I thought I understood, but I guess I was wrong. I have mistaken. I am at fault. Though it is not fair for me to burden myself with all the blame.. I know I am not the only one who have mistaken someone for somebody else. I never expect anything more than respect, understanding and love from anybody yet it still is difficult to receive all 3. Should I lower my expectations? Should I keep trying? Or should I do what I always do.. Walk away.I don't intend to perform the latter as it will crush me like ice cubes in a snow cone machine.I know what I need to do but I just want some time to reflect on everything. One night perhaps. I know these things happen all the time so I am going to keep my head up high and have faith in whatever that is best for me. For us.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Grilled to perfection.
2008 has begun!!! I can't honestly say that it was a splendid start, as I received a tragic news about one of my closest friend's loss. Her father passed away on the 31st of December, 2007.
Ni, I'm here for you. Always.
To those who are reading, please take a moment to pray for the deceased. *Al-Fatihah*
*Inhale..Exhale*I spent New Years Eve at Coco's. BBQ! We did it all on our own. Bravo Bravo! Hmm.. But we are old enough aren't we? Haha.There were drumsticks, lamb, kebabs (we had to improvise on the wrongly cut beef. We asked the butcher at Tesco's to cut the block into steak-like pieces but nay, he cleverly cut them into small squares. Square steaks!? No way!), potato salad, BBQ potatoes, chicken alfredo (Thanks Izra's auntie!), mac & cheese and garlic bread (courtesy of Fateen), bihun goreng (DD), nasi goreng (Azfar) and uhmm.. well, loads more! A little too much for the party of 12, no? There were plenty of leftovers! And I mean, PLENTY. Enough for another party!We sang, danced, grilled (Lee Ann), laughed, & jumped into the pool. Well, Izra PUSHED me and DD into the pool. Hilarious! When the countdown started, we gathered at the outside TV area with our paper crowns and those pop things. Those little bottles with a string hanging out at the bottom and when you pull it, it goes POP! and confetti comes out. Yeah, whatever those are called.12am - "HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR! pop! pop! pop! pop! Woooooo..." Song in the background : None other than Dancing Queen by Abba. Were we celebrating 1976? ~Fireworks started and we rushed to the opening and saw fireworks from 3 different locations. We had to climb the fence to watch. But Boyfriend didn't. :)I couldn't ask for a more perfect countdown. Had my loved ones around me. I was over the moooonnn... We then started to play 'pss' and later Pictionary. The former was a tummy twisting round of good fun. I laughed so hard!! We hit each other hard too! Man, the pain was immense. But totally worth it! *grin*Played a bit of Pictionary before me and Boyfriend had to leave. Said our goodbyes and walked towards the car. I got to open up the convertible! *bigger grin* Ooohhh Fateen gave me a balloon so there I was in the passengers seat broadcasting my balloon to the people of Shah Alam. Haha.Parked in front of my house and reminisced about the night. :)))))31st of December 2007 - A night well spent!! Definitely unforgettable.